A
Story of Death, Change, and Transformation – from the West
of the Medicine Wheel in our Lineage
by Marianne Spider Star Weaver Ober
According
to Sun Bear’s Earth Astrology, I was born in the time of
the Snake (known as Scorpio in Zodiac Astrology). Freeing myself
from that which no longer serves me – as a snake sheds its
skin – is critical for my development and evolution of self
(physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally, sexually). It
is necessary to transmute my burdens into a higher vibration.
For with every shedding, there is a new body, a new beginning.
A
year before I began my journey through the 13 Healing Moons of
the Great Turtle Mystery School, I experienced a profound loss.
My brother, a Navy pilot, was among four men killed when the helicopter
he was flying crashed during a routine flight. Upon hearing the
news, my relationship with myself and the world changed. My heart
became heavy, my spirit felt crushed. Everything and everyone
appeared differently than before. During those first four seasons
after his death, I remember feeling outside of my body each time
I shared my story. Relating to myself and to others became a foreign
and somewhat uncomfortable experience. How was I to re-create
a self and family-identity without a brother? Upon beginning my
Mystery School journey, even a year after his death, I was overwhelmed
with grief – and certainly not “grounded” in
my physical body.
Month
after month many Mystery School teachers and fellow students supported
me as I grieved – and grieved – and grieved. Through
the Sweatlodge ceremony, I was able to let go of my loss. Pleiadian
Lightwork guided me back into my physical body through psychic
self-care and energy clearings. Shamanic ceremony, where nature
is my teacher, reconnected me to the four worlds of Grandmother
Earth, reflecting back to me my strengths and gifts. “Moondance”
assignments awakened within me the Archetypes of the Lover, Magician,
and Warrior. Each of my Moondances reflected what my spirit needed
to evolve and transform self-limiting patterns and behaviors into
a higher vibration and sense of self-actualization.
Shortly
after my brother’s helicopter crash in July 2003, it was
suggested during a lightwork counseling session that I pursue
a lawsuit against the manufacturers of the helicopter. Overwhelmed
with grief, I resisted. When I began my Mystery School in September
2004, I still had not pursued any kind of legal action. During
my school, I was given a Warrior Moondance to research my brother’s
helicopter crash and other accidents of the same kind of craft.
From what I discovered, I was to determine what needed to be done,
if anything – for the Warrior’s Way is of Honor. After
extensive research, I decided to follow through with the guidance
that came through in that lightwork session a year and a half
earlier. I filed a lawsuit against the manufacturers of the helicopter
to hold them accountable for their negligence. Through the process
and ultimate success of this lawsuit, four years after the crash,
I gained tremendous confidence in myself as a seeker of truth
and justice.
Throughout
those 13 healing moons, I deepened my connection to Great Spirit
and to opportunities that come in aligning with my Higher Self
and Purpose. I was able to gain true knowing that my brother is
accessible anytime. He is certainly not “dead” –
and perhaps more alive than ever. I know I am. It is impossible
to accurately describe how expansively different my life is because
of my journey through those 13 Moons. Within a circle of gifted
teachers, healers, students, medicine brothers and sisters –
through the endless mirrors of self-reflection – I gained
remembrance of who I truly am. I continue to deepen my relationship
with these Métis Medicine Ways, as Spider Star Weaver.
I am grateful.
To
All My Relations.
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